Maternity Leave

Can’t believe how quickly this has come around, it’s crazy!

I am very thankful for the rest though, I am still feeling very sick and tired, not really eating much and generally quite grumpy.

I wish I could enjoy my leave a bit more, I have severe limitations to what I can do now ☹

I have managed to start sorting Lenny’s old baby clothes though, so not a complete loss! It’s hard to remember how small they once we’re, some of his baby vests could fit the cat!

I wonder if this baby will fit in them, or if he’s going to be bigger? X

Motivation

I usually lack motivation, and find it hard to get going, especially now at seven months pregnant.

But the last couple of days I have an itch in me that wants to do something, and I’m not sure what it is. I feel the need to do something creatively or to feel like I’m making a difference, but I have no idea what it it.

I have some unfinished projects I need to finish which is a start. But that’s not enough. Once I figure out what it is, I will be happy!

Great British Weather

I know I shouldn’t complain, but I will anyway.

ITS TOO HOT!

At 7 months pregnant it is an absolute nightmare doing anything, because you are knackered and boiling within about 5 seconds of moving.

Sleeping is a distant memory, and so is being a normal regulated temperature.

In Sickness

So last week resulted in a visit to the labour ward after being sick a stupid amount of times, and not being able to keep even water down.

I had felt rough all day, puked in the work car park and then about another 9 times before the out of hours doctor sent me up the hospital for some good old iv fluids and anti sickness drugs.

I thought it might be the start of hyperemesis again, but it seems it was just a bug as OH has been sicky too this week.

As much as I hate being in the hospital, I did feel tonnes better a few days later, the best I have done this pregnancy.

Thank you NHS for making me feel human again 😊

Boys Boys Boys

I was super excited when I found out I was having another boy. Don’t get me wrong, I would’ve been happy if it were a girl, but I was so sure I wanted two boys.

I think some people thought that I would like a girl ‘to have one of each’. Not really. Girls are just drama, and don’t get me started on teenage angst and hormones, I remember all too well how that felt. I just couldn’t see myself with a baby girl, and given that this pregnancy was unexpected to say the least, the very least nature could do was to bless me with another little boy. I can just see them being best buddies, sharing and looking out for each other. I’m sure girls do this too, but there is something unexplainable within me that wanted the two boy bond.

I’m sure its lovely having a baby girl, with the pink and the frills, but being a tomboy myself growing up, I like the rough and tumble of boys (and their toys seem to be way cooler).

Part of me had to gear myself up just to prepare in case this was a girl. I knew I would cry, and selfishly, some part of me would have been disappointed. Controversial? Maybe. After all, any baby is a blessing. I’ve read about gender disappointment groups, and I was secretly hoping that I wouldn’t have to join one, but would have been nice knowing I wasn’t alone in my feelings.

I am happy and excited knowing that my second little boy is on the way, something I’m not sure I could’ve guaranteed had it been a girl. I almost feel guilty for saying it, but I’m putting it out there because I’m sure many a person has been through something similar.

So we are definitely a male-orientated household now. The dog and I severely outnumbered, but that’s exactly how I want it.

Back Again

Rather than apologise for being awol again, I’m going to quickly summarise what’s been happening over the last few weeks and will venture further into these topics in future posts.

1. 20 week scan confirmed boy #2!

2. Extra growth scans will be necessary before the caesarean.

3. Was admitted to hospital (again!) with severe vomiting and dehydration.

4. Sleepy sleepy tired 💤

These are many things amongst others, but mainly just the usual pregnancy related funness! X

And then there were four…

After being absent for a while, I am so excited to announce that baby number two is due in August 😊

I’ve been feeling generally quite rubbish. Thankfully I haven’t been sick like last time, but the never-ending nausea and exhaustion are really getting me down. Even simple tasks are proving to be a chore! I feel jealous of the people that never get ill when they are pregnant!

I wish I felt like eating healthy, but all I want is junk food which is making me feel worse. I’m going to be the size of a whale 🐳

New Year

Can’t believe its been nearly two months since I last posted, shame on me!

Well Christmas has been and gone, and so has Lenny’s second birthday, seriously where does the time go?

We have a proper little toddler on our hands now, we’ve entered the twos but it hasn’t been terrible so far. Yes, he has the odd yell and throws a toy occasionally, but to be fair we’re getting off pretty lightly.

Finally managed to upgrade him to a beaker for his juice, we must have at least 50 others in the cupboard (I’m not the only one right?). I think our next milestone is going to be tackling potty training. Can’t say I’m looking forward to it personally, but I’m sure it will click with him when he is ready.

Though, he has learnt how to open the front door now so have to make sure it is locked at all times! Its scary how clever little people are, don’t put anything past them! x

Countdown to Christmas

Firstly, I’d like to apologise for my lack of posting. As I may or not have mentioned before, we have had a lot going on at home. Now that has been resolved (successfully!), I can get back to posting about the tribulations of young children!

We are finally in the Christmas spirit in our house, and we are looking forward to our second Christmas as a family. Lenny still doesn’t really understand the whole Christmas thing, so the presents, cards and decorations will be a bewilderment to him. Especially, as at the moment, he is in love with cardboard boxes and playing with them instead! We did make some Christmas cards a couple of weeks ago, which involved finger paints, a whole lot of mess but a whole lot of fun, so that will be a nice surprise for anyone receiving one of those this year!

I guess the only main concern is the tree. I remember last year he had a fascination with it, so this year he is going to be all over it for sure. I am fully expecting to find the tree and its decorations strewn across the floor on multiple occasions before the year is out.

Another thing I’m hoping to do is to take Lenny to the park, and have a go on the Christmas train! Like most little boys, he is obsessed with trains and I know this will be a real treat for him.

Its nice to be able to finally plan for Christmas after a truly rubbish year up until this point. How is everyone else doing? How are your Christmas plans going (or not going)?

Keep On Keeping On

We’re all having a difficult time with things at the moment, and its hard to know how to cope.

I find it hard to stay positive in the face of adversity, but I have to believe that things will work out and that Christmas will be awesome 🎄

Just wanted to say to the people going through trashy times whatever your situation – I feel your pain, believe things will get better and don’t bottle it up.

You got this ❤ xxx